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 我不知道我需要多长的时间才可以真正的把你忘记，我不知道我还是否有想你的勇气。但是，我知道我的这份爱，这份心痛，将会陪伴我一段很长很长的日子。 Easy&Simple. With♥, SERINE. NGMINFEI 谢谢你给我的一切 . Always had a place in my heart♥ |
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Monday, December 27, 2010 sudden gt a urge to blog (: I've left my blog for quite sometimes. Update once in a month i guess? It's 27december! Means the year is coming to an end ! Somehow. this year pass very fast . everything that happen, is still fresh on my memory. When i just read my facebook status for this 1year ... Happy ones , Sad ones, Stupid ones, alot more of feelings that i've faced during this year. Reading back, felt that it's quite stupid. Idk why. Hees. Things that i've faced , unhappy ones. & have learnt how t be strong in someways. 2011 is coming , Im still stuck in this lil hole of my own. & I dread January coming .. those moments that I dont wished to think of, the date that I've lost you. The place , tt i dontwish to face & go.. & I saw how your coffin went in to the fire for crematation... HOW I WISHED. Time would just turn back once. Ya, JUST ONCE. It'll be your 2years death annivesary on 120111. I'll go & find you that day (': I've changed quite abit. & alot of things to tell you. I know , you dont wished to see me in this state also. I cant help, not tt im stubborn. I dont wish to forget you, not tt i can or cannot. Im still happy , when im really happy. Just that , in some point of times. You're just came to my mind as usual. It's a daily routine already (: & I cried yesterday silently w/o anyone knowing. cause I dontwish friends to worry about me. somehow, the pain is unbearable. when all the fresh memories came back knocking into my head. like it just happened. I know that incident , had left a big impact on me & my life. I dont blame you , but why did you have t do such a stupid thing? Till now. I dont even know what's the fucking reason why you did that.. & I just see you dying infront of my eyes, hugging you tightly & shouting for help. The scene is always engraved in my mind forever & ever.... How i wish everything , was a dream somehow. I know that , I dontwish to face the reality somehow also. But i know i've to . cause you're no longer with me already. I just want to say thankyou . for giving me a happy memorable relationship even thou it's just 1month 7days . for letting me know what's love. for treating me like a princess in your hands. for doing all those touching things that noone did before. for putting me priority before anyone. Being the most silly boyfriend I've ever had. I'll always remember you. Ng Min Fei . (: I love you once , & always will in my heart . Must be real happy at the other side alrights .. Misses. xoxo. |
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