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 我不知道我需要多长的时间才可以真正的把你忘记，我不知道我还是否有想你的勇气。但是，我知道我的这份爱，这份心痛，将会陪伴我一段很长很长的日子。 Easy&Simple. With♥, SERINE. NGMINFEI 谢谢你给我的一切 . Always had a place in my heart♥ |
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Saturday, April 3, 2010 Omg zxc , im awake from my sleep (: I've just have a nap for one hour zz , & that pig called me . & i cant get back to sleep ): Haha , have a urge to post how i feel now. At least i'll feel better (: Ok starting from my confused fucked up feeling . It's time to put it a stop! I know it's tough for myself , but still what to do? Time will heals , but i know the scar would still be there .. What i have to say to you (: Do you know how much it hurts? For me to see everything yet just kept quiet & act as nothing happened? I'm a human also . I've feelings too . Everything i tried to speak nicely to you , Or just trying to be nice . What i get is all those sarcastic words , & your cold attitude. Lols , I've really tried my best to give in to you .. Even how much i wish to say to you , I just rant to my friends & not you .. This few days .. Really let me think alot , Who am i to you? When you're bored , then you come to find me? Or what . Don't blame to have this thinking . When i see your msg. Or after so long, finally i heard your voice . Do you know how happy am I? Though it's sound stupid . I still stupidly go tell you my stuffs like before .. (: & i saw those words that u've type in audi . Is really hurtful .. Yet , I just treat it as a joke somehow. It's doesnt meant it anyway. Lols , It's just me being silly anyways(: After so much things , I'm just telling myself . Maybe he'll changed . But still , No avail . Actions speaks louder than words bahs . Maybe I'm the one who've made you to become like this .. Seriously . I just like the Past ENJT. & Finally , I'm given up(: Think I cant take all this torture anymore .. Seriously super tiring . Maybe just a comment of yours in fb , or your msg . Can just affect me whole day.. I guess you didnt know it bahs . Cause maybe in your eyes . I'm already moving on . The things that you did after break-ups was like . Yahs , V.Imba (: Cried like one idiot . Cried like dk one retarded . Yet you dont bother? & Maybe I've felt immuned already. Idk how to react anymore . Or maybe i doesnt stand anything in your heart anymore. Maybe u've move on . But im just stucked here like one idiot._. Sometimes . When i look back to your blog . I really wished those words are true. Hahas , But it's over now (: I'll get over it asap (: After you see this post . All this would be just my last words to you . Yes, The feeling is there . I just need time to let it heal bahs (: & Stop saying everything is YOU! I never blame anyone. It's both at fault bahs. ^^ Last long w your couple . & hope you find a better girl . Jiayous~ I'm feeling quite blessed recently(: Especially to GGZX. You've cheer-ed me up quite alot . & Really treat me v.good . Thou some words really abit unbelievable . & it's a miracle that how we met each other. I'm sorry for sending those msgs again & again & saying those words. I can see that you treat me really well . But , somethings I'm still not ready yet . I know you'll give me time (: Thanks for staying by my side this few days . & keep accompanying me . (Y) Wednesday Stayed at home; Be good girl (: Mood super -'- up ; Off my phone for a couple of hours . & sorry for those that i didnt answered & replied . Sorry for making pig worried ): & He came down to find me till morning, he went home (: Have alot chit-chats . Thursday Woke-ed up late ; Went to tantric after recieving girl's msg cause she's working. Super packed . & Helped abit . cause not enough staffs . END UP I KANA TAH BY LEONG & ROBIN! OMGGGG ! B.SPIN BODOH! Jitao sibei kick-.- First time drink! Went to DYMK, & drink beer also ! Drink,Drunk & HIGH! :D Went back tantric toh at staircase cause buay tong alr-.- Super seh liaos , i also dk what am i doing! Rested at there . & All take turns look after me ! (: TYVM ! That pig came to find me , cause he know that im seh already. Lols , they go complaint to him._. He came to look after me for awhile . & Waited for them to finish work (: & Im sober already! Thou feel sibei gaowei . & kana disiao-ed dao ....!!! Have alot of fun ! & all of us went to Macpherson to have our supper ! After supper . Gaston sent me home , & he accompanied me awhile & he went home (: Friday. HAHAHAH! Im late for work ); Work as usual . Was quite fun uhs , thou super pekchek . Cause super squeezy! & Outside new bar was v.BRIGHT! Again . That GGZX came to find me , Everytime bluff me want ._. He & Zhu waited us to finish work , then we followed zhu&wee go eat nasi lemak. While the rest went maxwell . Then we cabbed to lan first (: HAHAH! He took the effort to learnt audi . Thou sibei funny. From i no mood ; can titi make me laugh._. Played till 6plus am . Then accompanied girl wait bus . & he sent me home again & slack awhile then he went home(: Hais . I totally cant sleep now . Sibei shag ): Jiayous! I say i dont miss you , Is just bluffing myself .... (: But i think i'll never know or understands what you want/thinking anymore. Think it's doesnt matter anymore. OHYAHS ! Tags replied here Ok . End of updating(: |
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