NGMINFEI 谢谢你给我的一切 . Always had a place in my heart♥
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im trying v hard(:
Monday, March 15, 2010
zxc . Im back home finally. lols super tired la bodoh!
After so much quarrels & misunderstandings. Least , we're still back to friends . I rather be friend then enemy. All the quarrels & fights only make me feel tired & feel super -'- up. & It'll remain this all the way bahs (:
& i found out . It's been long since i've saw him & them. After the day i walk away & board the taxi . Heard so much things from each other . & think back now; It's just a super fking small problem yet we can quarrel till like no end. Super lame._. I find out that im lame also x.x
so many emotions flowing thru my mind ~ Maybe after so much things happen in the past ; Im getting more & more sensitive .. & more afraid of hurt le bahs . I rather . I hurt the person rather then let the person hurt me . Even i dontwant it or i dont meant it . Just protecting myself from being played again bahs . But i guess it's the wrong mindset bahs .
To maintain a relationship . Both have to compromise ; & have to tell what each other feel . & i found out . is i never really go understands what he wants? & he dont know what i wants? cause we've never had a heart2heart talk properly . But only once outside sjb.
所有一切的一切。 都已变成了回忆吧.. 也应该学会了放下了.
maybe both of our feelings have faded for each other le .. 我也想通了； 不能做情人 还是朋友。 No matter what happens ; who got a boyfriend/girlfriend first . I'll give my blessings (: I cant be so selfish also ._. & being such a sensitive freak . Things happen for a reason . & Dont regret when it's gone bahs.
I've a eternal regret in my heart & mind le . Guess it's enough le bahs .. Abt the rumours & stuffs , idk whether it's the truth . But it doesnt matter also le(: cause he've the rights already. Even thou jealousy kills , But blame on myself dontknow how to cherish & understands . Right? hahas.
somehow i miss the past (: The first time we met each other ~ lols .. But i know it'll never be the same .
& i'm growing up ~ Finally i realised how does r/s feels after so long(: Maybe we doesnt meant for each other bahs as what you said. Still ; you stand a lil place in my heart for now . Take good care uhs . ^^
Seeing all my friends happily attached & still loving each other . I'm happy for them ; Yet somehow felt something is missing . Guess i need more time bahs.
There's a lesson learnt after each episode(: 爱情；好复杂哦..
Ok . A full-stop to emo post (: At least i feel better after saying all out..
Today went out with Dfamily . All was out ! Hooray . Went to paragon to have dinner . Belated Birthday dinner for andrea & deric . Super damn full lahs ! Lols , & the food not bad la . Only abit ex . Thanks for treat ! ;mua
went to cinealeisure . they bought their headphones , & decide to go for mind's cafe . Terry,Desmond, Girl & me make our way to fareast . as they want to cut hair . End up . All closed when we reached there . Thus , we bus-ed down to parklane . went to find calli awhile . & went to meet up the rest (:
Played mind game till 11pm . Super fun lahs ! Outing was nt bad ; only some conflicts happen . super pekchek also . But still ; what to do (:
Rest went to gamble . A few of us went to find calli ; & went to chamber for lan (: Super on form today! Happy die . 188 can 1.3m & Siopakuay first time fb also win ! :D But cnnt ss ! ;eeks .
Playing with my new camera today! Took quite a few photos ~ shall upload it soon after i bought a card reader xD
For saturday . Went shopping w benben ! (: Sim lim -> Bought camera charger . Bugis street -> Bought clothes , heels , jacket , tanktop. Chambers -> Audi-ed awhile . Omgzxc . & spend nearly 200dollars in one day! ._.
cabbed to tantric to find the rest & waited them to finish work (: Was kana disiao-ed! Lols , anyways also thanks to him accompany me to talk. Have a nice chat with you toos. Waited for them to finish work . went to maxwell for supper / breakfast . Then waited till 6am & cabb-ed home! (:
P.S: `Realised how much it hurts . when you cant say the things out to the one you liked(: cause afraid there might be another quarrel . Or even he already dont feel it alr(: so it's better to keep it all inside (: & I miss you & you ~ .... Ohs . & it's 1year & 2months alr . sighs .. will be there to visit you next week (:
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