♥/` 12Jan2009.0531am;

我不知道我需要多长的时间才可以真正的把你忘记，我不知道我还是否有想你的勇气。但是，我知道我的这份爱，这份心痛，将会陪伴我一段很长很长的日子。

Easy&Simple.
With♥, SERINE.

NGMINFEI 谢谢你给我的一切 . Always had a place in my heart♥

HAPPY 3rd MONTH! imissyou.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

babybaby!
im here to blog agains(:

deardear uhs. i miss your smile!
firstly! happy 3rd monthsary!
though u're not here anymore.. but then u're always be in my heart yahs!
thought of updating yesterday 12am. but i off comp uhs.
so didnt update yahs. dont mind ehs(:
iloveyou.
must takecare of yourself alrights. & i know you'll always be there watching over us.
maybe i cant see you anymore; but i can feel your presence.
why didnt you come to my dreams!
i miss you like hells can~ hais. :( please please come to my dream kays.

words from my heart to you:
though i still cant face the real fact that u're gone.
& my tears just drip & i cried when i talked about you to kangwei yesterdays.
i really does miss you. miss your laughter everythings.
the words that u've said to me in the past. all the sweet memories we had.
no matter good or bad; it's still worth to be kept as memories in my mind&heart forever.
u'll never be forgotten. no matter how long.
the pain. is still theres. & i've live my life happily for you.
i'll live for you. even though i've think of ending up the same way as you.
but i know. it'll hurt the people around me that concerns me. especially mama~
there's really alot of words that i wana say to yous.
& still wish that u're there to be my listening ear. & i know that u'll be somewhere listening to me.
maybe u cant give me advice anymore. or console/hug/sayang me when i cry anymore.
but in my heart. i knows you're there. im contented enough.
in that first month. im really happy to be with you. the love that you give me is really what i wished for.
& the fact; i regret that i've hurt you in the past when u're jio-ing me by saying those hurtful words.
& even we're together; cause of ex issues. that make u totally heartbroken.
but. i really fall in love with you alreadys.
cause of your sincerity. & love;concern that u gave me.
doing so much things for me.. & always be there for me when i need someone.
im sorry for not understanding your feeling in that period of time.
& always give my stupid attitude & anger towards you. but u'll always find all ways to make me laugh again.
i does miss the way that u act cute to me. & always doing stupid actions.
am i a good girlfriend to you. i still asking myself.
am i really the one who partly cause your death? i know i am. no matter how people say it's not my fault.
but i knows if i didnt cry that day. didnt have a tiff with you. didnt reply your messages so that you wont come find me.
all this wont happen. & if i never turned my head around. if i didnt want to go home.
everything wont end up to be like this.
till now, maybe we're still celebrating our 3rd month happily.
how i wish to take more pictures with you. filled with new ones in my phone.
but it's impossible anymore. only the past memories & the pictures with me stays. not you anymore.
where are you now? i felt like i want to see you. & hug you tightly.
nobody can replace you~ even if im attached somedays. i would never take off your ring that i wear it on my neck.
7more days. it's would be the 2nd month that u've left. 12march09.
times pass fast~ but.. somehow. it felt empty without you.
maybe i rely on you without myself knowing. till when u're gone. then i know it.
baby; thanks for everything. it's does hold an memorable memories in my mind that worth remembering.
iloveyou.akucintakau.woaini. Y

erhms. today leys~
woke up around 10am~ but is should be i work 10am~ which is like wtf cans.
cause too tired already. insufficient sleep uhs. slept at 3plus yesterdays.
so called buddy let him know that i would be late for work.
bath & prepared. & rush out to work.
reached workplace around 1120am uhs.

then. changed & went to level one(:
work work & work. did enjoy myself uhs.
cause got food to eat & buddy also took 1 packet milk give me drink. thanks uhs buddy!
& of course enjoyed working with buddy&co.
but quite tired uhs. stand whole day & de damn shoes making my leg pain cans.
today quite slacking also toos lahs.
cause only lunch buffet. after that do steaming(:
so quite slack inside uhs.
thens. at first scheduled to work till 5pm.
but cause of some reasons; extend till 6pm uhs.
help do the setting blahblahs~ & work till 6pm. then went off.
p.s paisehs to buddy ohs, didnt wait for you. cause friend waiting(:

kangwei&charbo fetch me after work at changi t3 uhs.
they waited for me at interchange~ thanks uhs both of them! :D
thought of going sembawang dehs; cause charbo want to pray at temple.
but cause too far. at last changed our mind.
so walked around t3~ cause both of them never come before.
went ntuc bought tibits(: & went mini toons walkwalk.
thought of eating foodcourt or popeye but abit ex. so thus drop off the idea.
thinking where to go till i suggest kallang leisure(:

so went to kallang leisure park instead; as both of them didnt went before.
so trained down to kallang; & changed bus 11 to theres.
during the journey. charbo seing ur past msges to me.
hahas. she also saw what u send to me about her dehs~ sibei keai la her reaction.
she also forward those sweet chain messages & goodnight messages to her phone.

reached kallang leisure park uhs. then went find food to eat. cause they very hungry nahs.
& i 'va a craving for kfc cause changi t3 de popeye too ex uhs.
& there have kfc uhs. so happy~ lols! so they accompanied me to eat. (: thanks!
eat & chit-chatted blahblahs~ & went to arcade.
kangwei played guitar whereas both of us went to walk around.
leave the arcade. thought of going home alreadys as it's late luhs.
but before going off. sudden came to my mind that film grade is hiring people.
so went to fill in interview form(:
wahs. so many things need to write lorhs. so mafan uhs.
then went to walk around; went to cd shop walkwalk.
& went off after that. it's started to rain when we step out uhs.
it's like alamaks lor. so we smoke first.
kangwei went to buy ciggie toos. lols~ dnt waste money uhs.
but neverminds uhs. cause he also seldom buy.
thought of waiting shuttle bus. but dnt have alreadys. saddist :(

so walked to bus-stop. got abit rain uhs. but neverminds lahs.
better then standing there waiting like idiots. dui ma? hahas.
smoked halfway bus came. so 灭掉 the cigge first.
bused to geylang there. then pei-ed charbo walked to her bus-stop.
also accompanied her wait bus. talked alot of craps along the ways.
said byebye to her. & kangwei fetch me home after that.
he slacked at my house awhile.& took photos put inside his psp.
& also help him download song. around 11plus he went home. ((:
& here i am updating blog!~