♥/` 12Jan2009.0531am;

我不知道我需要多长的时间才可以真正的把你忘记，我不知道我还是否有想你的勇气。但是，我知道我的这份爱，这份心痛，将会陪伴我一段很长很长的日子。

Easy&Simple.
With♥, SERINE.

NGMINFEI 谢谢你给我的一切 . Always had a place in my heart♥

today. hais..

Sunday, January 18, 2009

baby;
i'm awake liaos, at 3plus pm just now.
& now shall continue yesterday post..
sorry norhs, yesterday too tired luhs.
cause didnt sleep well for last few day. & i only have a nap for a couple of hours.

at third floor, anson called us wake up at 12plus pm.
saw junlong there, & asking him about todays whether he's coming down anot.
& andrew called us to go sentosa. with them & some others whom i don't know derhs.
thought of nt going de. cause 'lai ang' hais. den feel very awkard.
but still, they asked me to go there & relax myself.

went back to anson house, to have a bath. but then heater spoiled.
so only use water to wash up myself. & borrow clothes frm anson.
as going to sentosa, cant possibly wear skinny go there marhs.
somethings happen at anson house, shall nt say it here.
cause it's also other people private matters. but at last solved it luhs.
shall let you know those things that i didnt say out here, when im chatting with you downstair.
& have gastric at that point of time. cause of never eat all this.
don't be angry horhs, though i know u always love to force me to eat. even i don't want to.
but now, only my friends & family force me to eat. not you anymore.

anson's mama asked andrew they all buy gastric medicine for me.
& thanks alot to them, im feeling better after that.
then went down, anson's papa fetched us to vivo.
8 people in the lorry.
when the lorry going reach vivo, i just became so sad at that moment.
alot of memories flash back at that point of time.
& the song keep reminds me of you. 'from this moment on' as i'm listening on my mp3.
my tears drop. & charbo keep console me.

when all of us walking inside. i saw the pushcart shop that we've walk pass in the past.
that i told you before the bride&groom bearbear couple very cute.
then u said this by disturbing me, '你要跟我结婚啊, 我也是很可爱嘞'
& i smack you. & u seems to be looking at that pushcart after we left.
it's just seems so memorable. they went seven-eleven buy food & drinks.
while some of us went toilet & 4th floor to buy ticket to sentosa.
& flashback appears.

remember the first time u asked me out. u ask me to play one game.
u ask me reach lerhs, then stay at one side of vivo.
& u'll come find me. at last u didnt find dao due of my phone going low batt already.
so i told u when am i instead. hahahas. u're so dumb that time.
& our first movie seen together is the horror movie. 'quarantine'
i know i keep hide behind you to avoid the scary part.
& u gave me warmth knowing that i'm cold.
by rubbing my hands throughout the movie.
& i remember how childish are you, went to sit the horse at third floor playground.
as that's was your working place in the past.
u also keep force me to go sit. but i insisted don't want. cause damn paiseh larhs.
i still have the picture. but my phone cant upload it. haish.
there's really alot of memories in there.
before both of us got together,
u'll always go to vivo to fetch me to go balloon house downstair meet them when u offday.
& u once said before. '我要vivocity成为有我们回忆的地方'
my mood was damn sad that time. as i know. i cant go with you again luhs.
& those times have already become a part of it in my memories already.
u wont be bringing me to walkwalk around there luhs.
& no more 回忆 from there already. :(
my heart is really pain this time. it cant compared to any of my past relationship.
but there's nothing i could do much more.. nothing more..

summarise of sentosa trip.
everything was quite okie luhs, though i remind of what u told me.
saying that u'll bring me to underwater world & sit cablecar. & do have fun in sentosa.
everything was just you,you & you..... i just couldnt get you off my mind.
at there also got abit taiji narhs. so sway can.
joseph saw one person that destroys his mood.
anyways, didnt fight or what. everythings was fine.
but i guess the guy was just.. nvm. shall tell you personally(:
& charbo kana pushed in into water by anson, andrew & duno who. forget already.
kana disiao-ed till very jialat. kana throw sands & put seaweeds.
if u see it, u sure laugh like dono what luhs, cause i keep laughing.
till they overdo it. then i shouted. charbo legs & hand kana scratched luhs.

played volleyball & also use it to kick soccer.
make sand balls cause too boliaos & boring already.
& i never kana pushed. only kana soaked in water only.
all play till seven plus & went to have a shower.
thks to lionel girlfriend, who lent us her shampoo & shower de. i duno how to spell her name.
bath finish, & headed to take our train back to vivo.
went seven-eleven. want to buy drinks de. but too much people.
damn pekchek can. got a bunch of idiot china people.

i say excuse already still squeeze like no people like that.
make me shout then they siam. hais. kana squeeze like roti prata like that.

went back vivo, thought of going home.
but since they want i accompany, & it's abit early for me to go home.

thus, i accompany them to go food republic to eat. but i never eat narhs.
& the time just goes 'tick-tocks, tick-tocks' & i see the time going to be 930pm.
the feeling came back again. the painful-ness.
i keep imagined if u're still there, i would be on the way fetching u frm work.
but i know. it's all just my pure imagination.
it's all takes time for me to heal this pain. but u'll never been forgotten.
eat finish already. then went to the pool-side to have a walk.
went to smoke & talk with andrew about you. cause i told him im missing you.
he just told me alot of things. & as times goes, i'll eventually let go of it.
no matter how i miss you, how i love you. u wont never be back anymore.
& that's already the truth & the fact. i've to face it still.

sit outside the arcade & wait for the other guys. cause some went to play arcade.
& went to apply for timezone job too. & charbo went to play para-para.
kana disiao-ed by the guys. hahas. so funny luhs.
& went outside. between them gt some problems.
at last. i got pekchek & i just walked off alone. having saying twice that i want to go home.
although i'm lonely, but i've to get used to it as times goes by.
without u sending me home. without u calling me. without u messaging me.
without u hearing my complaints. without u to console me when im sad.

u've been a good boyfriend in the past.
sending me home every night. no matter how late is it. no matter how tired u're.
& because of me, u neglect alot of your drinking friends, as u know i dislike u to go drinking.
& always accompany to stay at boonlay.
without any complaints. without any pek-chekness.
& giving in to me, showering me with love. show me the care & concern i've yearn for.
always act cute give me see. always be there for me.
hais. but saying all this is useless now.
u wont be there. to show me all this much more.
& u cant accompany or meet up with your beloved brothers & friends either anymore.
i'm guilty. there's alot of if's & why's in my heart.
& how i wished time could have turn back at that moment.
or stop before at the moment u choose to jump down.
but i know. it's impossible.

i've stayed at home today. whole day.
have a talk with huiqin.
thanks for being such a good friend. though i know i've disappoint you alot of times.
but you're still there to cheer me up. even though it's very sacarstic can.
i'll go school tomorrow. & take my exam.
& thks for those words u've said.

are this really all fate? y does fate have to take you away from me & ur loved ones? hais.
it's today after 12am. ur seventh day. would i get to see you?
they'll come down to pray for you later. meeting them downstairs at 8plus pm.
as they've school tomorrow. they cant pray for you & stay till after midnight.
but i'll be there. just to chat with you & study downstair waiting for the time to come.

must remember to go home alrights. & see your friendster & my blog!
& let all your brothers dream of you.
i've saw your friendster profile already. alot does miss you still.
although i don't know them. i guess they're very close to you in the past.
& bless minghui with his tp. he's having it tomorrow.
he also does miss you alot.

baby.

我好想你。你要安心上路知道吗？
记得要托梦给我。不管你在哪里，你的身影永远存在我的心里。