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 我不知道我需要多长的时间才可以真正的把你忘记，我不知道我还是否有想你的勇气。但是，我知道我的这份爱，这份心痛，将会陪伴我一段很长很长的日子。 Easy&Simple. With♥, SERINE. NGMINFEI 谢谢你给我的一切 . Always had a place in my heart♥ |
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times pass so slow....
Friday, January 16, 2009 baby; im back home & here to update my blog.. kakak,xiaozhu,charbo& me went lavender to replace my ic. waited so long for it.. it's like 1hourplus. need to settle the appeal thingy. going rot inside already. andrew & his friend came to find us there too. settled the whole ic thingy at about 3plus. & kakak went to fetch meimei. while we make our way down to cantonment & they also accompany me go. went there to have my statement done. it took about one hour. & it's remind me of the happy memories as well as the sad ones.. i've to tell the IO frm the day i know you till the day you passed away. i'm devasted by some words.. but i'll guess, it's their responsibility. thought of going home after that, but.. at last went to boonlay market with them instead. waited for balloon at lakeside & we board the bus to market. played audi. & have quite alot of laughter with them. & their joke & disiao-ness really make me laugh alot after this few days. at least; at that moment. if u're there, i guess u wished to see me like this everyday right? in the past, u've always want to see me smile. or use so many ways just to make me laugh. even though both of us have some conflict. i miss your smile. & i miss your laughter & jokes... but i know i'll never hear it again.. at night; i don't know why, i sudden miss you alot. i've told what happen to you to junlong & ahlang.. junlong do miss you still.. & he's very sad too.. alot of us cant face the fact still. & all miss your jokes. some still miss playing pool with you. rmb? the days u're with us at boonlay shopping centre third floor. u promised me to train me to play pool dehs. & also teach me play billiard de. but you wont be there already.. while they're playing. i went to one side & im thinking of you. told alot of words to you. thou it's just repeatedly the same words.. but. i hope u really can hear it from me. flashback just went through my mind. everytime we'll smoke outside the place. beating each other. u'll hug me from behind, when im leaning on the ledge. 我真的好想你。但是这一切都已是回忆了。 你不会再回到我身边了。而也不会出现在我面前了。 i've cried. though i'm trying my best not to cry already. cause i sudden see the time ;9plus pm. the time u going finish work; & will come find us everytime. & i always look forward to that time happily. but now.. i'll cry when i see this time. cause u wont be here already. the always happy 2 couples; balloon&jasmin. me&u? everytime we'll help each other to settle the conflict between ourselfs. & the days we're tgt. really very memorable. ;at balloon house downstair. at vivo. at anson's house. at boonlay. at jurongpoint. now u've left me. i really feel that. i really lost something that it meant alot... balloon have tried to make me laugh & he did it. & u know what he did; it's so like you in the past. by snatching away my mp3. dnt let me listen to songs that make me cry.. charbo have also cried. cause she also miss you alot. u're also the first 'korkor' that in her heart that meant alot. u also must look after her alrights. blessed balloon&charbo together happily without any conflicts. attitude frm balloon have changed towards charbo already. they've become more sweet & seldom quarrel already. u should be happy to hear that isn't it? in the past, u'll always say: '这样就好嘛！一直吵架，不会sian啊！' & disturb them & gay with balloon. about 10plus pm. i told them i'm going home. cause i dnt have the mood already. since they're going anson house, so i went alone back. at that point of time. i sudden felt that you downstair to come fetch me already ahs? but when i went down; i know it's impossible anymore. i wont see your bike downstair. or even you wearing your uniform downstair waiting me. my tears just dropped. the loneliness that i never felt before. found out that my ezlink don't have money. i just sat down at the bus-stop. seeing the opposite. which have your memories there. 有你以前的身影在那里让我好想见到你。。 i msg charbo & serene to let them know; & see whether they cn help me. walked around; as my tears have become crying already. the songs.. just make me thinks of you.. & alot people praise that your singing is nice okies! & u always sing give me listen de. charbo came to find me.. & pei-ed me to find anson they all. cause i told her; i sudden felt very lonely. i really don't know what to do at that point of time. yongkun pei-ed me all the way when i reach there. chat about your stuffs. balloon went home first as he's tired too. to balloon; sorry.. i didnt know that u're talking with me. & charbo is consoling me. therefore she dont know that you talk to her. so we never answer you. dnt blame her alrights. went to 692 there sit down & see where everybody is going. & they accompany me to find serene at 677. as she going to send me home after she go fetch his boyfriend. went 679 to slack awhile & bought one chickenbun to eat. my whole day first meal. i'm sorry. cause i really no appetite to eat.. then xiaozhu&yongkun accompanied me to find serene. while the others walking behind slowly so off i went first. to all the guys there; thks for cheering me up & doing stupid stun that make me laugh. & keep saying jokes. & playing around. that make me disperse my imagination awhile. talked alot with serene; it's been long since i saw the girls. it's been one week plus since i didnt went school already. & she gave me alot of encouraging words. thks for sending me home; at least when my time's with you. i've somebody to accompany & chat with me. & i really xianmu how you & your bf play around. it's really cute(: & telling me alot of ren shen da dao li. & thks for being there. really thanks alot. went sengkang. to fetch his boyfriend home to get his things & they sent me home. reached my house around 12plus am. went to the usual place. to see you & chat with you awhile though it's really heartbreak.. & home i went & the scene just repeat through when i walked pass. u wont be around in my house anymore. i cant see you sleep anymore. cant play with you anymore. cant have hearts-to-hearts talk with you anymore. cant have you to scold me anymore. times passes very slow. |
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