NGMINFEI 谢谢你给我的一切 . Always had a place in my heart♥
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saddest moment.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
always remember this face that i've make you laugh non-stop that day.
Y baby; i've went to your cremation today. reach around 820am. we're the earliest other then your family members. ur body are bought to there at around 9am. when i saw it, i really cant bear the pain inside me. i don't dare to see you inside there. im really afraid.
went inside. after all of your friends have seen you. i went to see you. i really cant recognise you. when i saw your face. my tears just drop uncontrollably. i guess the impact that day is damn huge. till.. i really.. u become old inside it. but u'll always be my cutest dearest in my heart. i've seen you twice. & said some words inside my heart to you. hope that u could hear it. im sorry that i've still cried in front of you. but the pain in my heart really cant be mentioned it by words.
at 950am. ur body was bring in to the cremation hall. while all of us went to the viewing hall. to accompany you for your last journey. could heard the cryings. thou all was silent all the way. watched your body get nearer & nearer to the fire. & my heart just sunk. i couldnt face the fact still.. at last. i've saw the door closed. & everything have ended. bid goodbye to my dearest boyfriend. :( u're going to have a special place in my heart. im going to remember you for the rest of my life. & going to try to lead my life strongly for you & my beloved ones.
i love you.
ur ring i'll be bringing with me around. & would never take off.
& i know's u'll be there for me.
thou i might not see you, or touches you.
but i'll always miss you deeply in my heart.
Y
after your cremation, andrew,joseph,xiaozhu,charbo & me cabbed down to boonlay inter to meet my mum. & go to jurong hq to report for my case. for my case, i only kana warning frm the police. i knows that u've been protecting me. & looking after me frm above. & after reporting, i & mama went to lavender to replace my ic. while they went to anson house. my ic appeal also successfully. only need pay 60bucks instead of 300bucks. & i went home with mama afterwards. my relationship with her getting better already. u can fang xin luhs. i'll be more matured der. u're supposing to meet her today; but u're nt longer there already. zhen de hao xiang ni....
yongkun,yongda,anson,charbo,& xiaozhu came my house. tmr siheng they all will come to pray. they bought incense paper & paper money to burnt for you. & bought ur fav food & drink.
all of us went downstair to pray for you. the place where u've landed. 你要安心上路吧。 all of us have prayed for you & shout your name. remember the way home okie! it's real hurtful to saw your bloodstains. i & charbo have talk with you in our heart. hope u'll able to hear it. & they all have say what they want to say to you.
we've cleaned your motorbike as well, it's dusty already. i'll find my time to go see it everyday. u must listen to us alrights. must find your way home.. & see your parents. if you've the time, must go find all your friends kay? & cnnt forget me hor! zhidaos ma!
to all my friends; thanks for encouraging me & giving motivating words today. & telling me to live on strongly. i'm deeply appreciated. at least, i know that all of you are with me to support me. especially. rhonda meimei, richard, alvin, huiqin & lianni (my clique girls), weilun, yiyang, kangwei, andy, kenny & many more.
deardear; i'm missing you right now. charbo & xiaozhu tonight going accompany me, u dnt anyhow wander around okies. iloveyou.
