NGMINFEI 谢谢你给我的一切 . Always had a place in my heart♥
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im missing you..
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
非儿 deardear; sorry nehs. didnt update my blog for a long time already. abit busy this few days. cause seldom at home. & cause im doing a video for you when im at home. hope u see luhs. can know how's much we missed you.
for todays. i reached home about 7plus am. went to sleep & woke up around 5pm. & i've stayed home for the whole day. good girl rights? at first thought of going down boonlay de, as ahleong wanted to fetch me over. but charbo's missing at that point of time. therefore, i didnt went. her phone also lost already. she've contacted me just now already. she's fine. but she's depressed about balloon stuffs. help me look after her alrights? seriously, im worried for her..
this few days also happen alot of things. break-ups. quarrels. alotalot of taiji going around. guess u should already knows. as charbo just now went to talk to you downstairs correct? i'm sorry that i couldnt help much in their relationship. couldnt do much as what u did when u're still around to help them. though sometimes i knows both of us cant do much about their matters. but we're still be there for them..at least charbo still have you as her listening ear. but now. there's only me left alone to handle. & she's have no one to talk to. sometimes, how i wish u're still here to hear my complaints. everytimes cheering me up when im stress about their stuffs. but i know it's impossible already...
ur video already done luhs. just that still asking around your friends. whether want to put their pics inside it. ur images & flashbacks. still flow through my mind every moments. no matter what im doing, no matter where am i..
didnt went for 拜年 for this year. totally no mood for new year. cause of alot of internal&external stuffs. maybe it's not a good one this year.. just the beginning, it's happen alot of things already. inculding the loss of you. we've planned at that time when u're still with me; what to do on chinese new year. as both of us also never go 拜年. those moments just flashback on my mind~ but i knows. u wont be here already.. no matter how much pain is in my heart. i've to painfully accept this fact. the fact that i've lost you forever.
新年初一 {260109} tio awake by mama at 10am plus. as need to prepare to go my ahma house bai-nian. mama fetched us go to ahma house. & went up slacked awhile. waited for my ah-yi & cousins come, & home we went. didnt stayed long enough as kakak&meimei going out. while i stay at home & rot. also insufficient sleep. so took an afternoon nap. sleep all the way around 10plus pm. then i woke up. yongda didi & charbo asked me out to boonlay to ton. so prepared & train-ed down to meet them at boonlay market. reached there around 12plus am, saw charbo sei-sei (drunk) already. hais. bth shiol. then fetch her go up to third floor to meet balloon & yongda didi. as ahgirl tarbo jio-ed me to go geylang. reluctant at first. cause worry about that si charbo. but gt didi help me look after her. thus, i followed anson, yongkoon, harry, siheng, goon, daniel, & ahgirl to geylang. all of us cabbed down seperating in 2groups. i with harry, anson & yongkoon. inside the cab, chat with harry about you. their words really soothe my heart. thanks yahs. all those flashbacks came back. but i guess i'm immune to it already. somehow, i still felt that it's my fault. & it's totally dont make sense of why u must jump?! but i'll guess. only u & gods know whats de real reason? went to gai-gai around geylang lor18. then went to book 2hotel rooms. & slacked inside. as waited goon to finish his business & came to meet us afterwards. with them, is full of laughters one cause of their stupid stun. took pictures of them too. as gona put inside the video. siheng & goon packed one packet of carrot cake for me as they knew im hungry. thanks alot yahs.(: balloon&ahpui came afterwards to meet us. slacked awhile. & i dont feel like going back boonlay cause tired already. so anson cabbed home with me around 5plus am. home sweet home.
-harry&siheng(: -anson&yongkoon -yongkoon
新年初二. {270109} woke up around 3plus pm. but never update blog cause doing your video. too engrossed in it already. hope it turns out nice. around 7plus i went out. den train-ed down to tiongbahru to meet up with charbo. meet her already then together go boonlay meet up with the others. went to boonlay market third floor to find them. got some problems agains. i really don't know what can i help this time round.. but at last, also bo taijis luhs(: hope she really can change already. went to new kopitiam with charbo,jiali,weiting,jiajia&andy as they wants to eat. but jiali went home first. slacked &have a chat with them at there too. then charbo went to find balloon as he's going home.
went back to third floor. & charbo ran away without telling me anything. but i guess. i know what's the reason. went to look around with didi,anson&weiting. but cant find. thus called ahgirl tarbo came down. felt so fucking pekchek at that point of time. & didi pei me go find her at 187 first. while others came afterwhich. at last all settled already. i cried again cause of charbo! cause she doing some stupid stun. & i felt so depressed at that moment. hais. flashback came back. & im really scared i'll lost another one.
chatted with ahleong. & didi also. cause he's also got some problems. slacked with jiajia,ahleong,ahgirl tarbo,daniel,jasmin,yongda didi,fireboy& others luhs. chit-chatted. slacked. & joked around(: times flies. & it's all of us went off at 6plus am. went to ahleong house first as he going fetch me & charbo to my house. thanks! waited for him to bath all this as he going back to his camp. & he sent us to my house nearby. i went off first. as charbo cant come to my house. & went home jiu sleep already cause too tired already. that's all.
to: yongda didi. you must try to cheer up yahs? though maybe we don't know each other long enough. but i really don't wish you get into some troubles or what. everything also must learn de. inculding to smile too(: sometimes, maybe i know it's hard cause u've your own reason. but no matter whats, heed my advice yahs? everything would be fine de. don't always think of doing stupid things. i dont wish to see it. really. anything still can tell me dehs. though i don't know how much i can help. at least i can be there to be your listening ear. 要加油哦！
to jasmin charbo: hope u really cn wake up this time round. i know it's hard to let go. but why let love drag you along? it's all takes time to heal. cant be couple, still can be friends right? we just can say you & scold you as friends. the decision still lies on you. but we just want to let you know that we're still concerned about you. by doing all those silly things. what will you gain? nothing but just hurt to yourself? correct? i know deardear is not longer there to listen or help you anymore. u've to learn to be independent. even he's around. he cant help much either. what we can say. what we can help. we already did our best luhs. the rest just lies on you already. jiayous bahs.
