♥/` 12Jan2009.0531am;

我不知道我需要多长的时间才可以真正的把你忘记，我不知道我还是否有想你的勇气。但是，我知道我的这份爱，这份心痛，将会陪伴我一段很长很长的日子。

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With♥, SERINE.

NGMINFEI 谢谢你给我的一切 . Always had a place in my heart♥

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

To:rhonda mei, if you still treat mi as kor or whatever.

maybe my attitude on monday is really to what le.
im here to say sorry to you.

i really did what i should do and said to her le.
i understand what you mean.
and i also don't wish to become like that.
she keep saying the same thing to me.
saying it pointless. what can i do ? i really dunno .
i really wish to hold back the relationship.
but now whenever i hold back she saying the same thing. she like dun even wan to.
i really wish to know how much i have stand in her heart.
i really dunno what what you wan.
i know it hurtful. but it same to me.
i don really expect much from her .
i just wan her to say out her true feel as that time she did.
not her attitude that she dun give it a dam or saying it pointless.

i know i did give a cold attitude to her on that day she came to find me.
but i did ask her not to come .. and i have told her about the reason.
cause i know i will give her a cold attitude & i dun wan her to think alot.
im really touch by her , when she came & brought me my fav bread .
but i just can't express it out to her . cause i really have alot of sutff inside my heart .as alot of problems to face.
i really dunno what to do .
does i have really done wrong?
i just wan like the past of us . that the happiness of us . laugher of us .
but it like seen all have change . when i suffer from that . i really miss those memories.
i really wish it come back to me.

but it seen like what i do . she will say the same thing . that i really dun wish to .
she have changed her attitude toward me. i really dunno why.
not the cold attitude. i dun mind abt the cold attitube .i can understand.
giving a cold attitude just dunno what to do.
but the attitude she have gave mi not only the cold attitude ... is the attitude that i dun stand much in her heart.

she say she in pain . and very tong ku .. i know.. it same to me.
but what can i do ?
she already have pushes me away. i already have hold her back no matter how i can.
and i have say all my feeling to her .. yet she still ....
do you understand ma?
not i have giving up the relationship .. is she choose to give up this relationship.
i really gona to gone crazy .

i just know no matter what i say or do . she still will say the same thing..
as you know ... from the start of i & her .. she have push me away & bring the break first.
and no matter what i alway hold her back . even in her heart it already break le.
in my heart she always my baby .. my girlf .
but now ? .....
she do until like that .. what else can i do .. you teach me la...
i really hao bu she de .
i really do still worry about her .. thinking abt her .
althought i didnt msg her or what . but in my heart she still stand alot .
maybe what i say now .. it really nothing le .
but i still wanna say .

how much i stand in her heart?
does she really give up ?
zai wo de xing li i still thinking alots.
cause i care.

to her ? i dunno.
maybe she have say that she have used to her own live without me.
think what i can do is just to respect her?

i just only know what she have said to me face to face.
when i go meet her after my work . and i have think throught alots. and know what to do.
she told me that we like starger . the feeling is werid . like the feeling have fade.
when i hear this .. i really hurt .. yet i can't do anything .
she suddenly say those to me . when i really really .....
nvm ba.

as her said i dun say out my feeling to her .
but does her?

i just know whenever i do . i always stand on her shoe to think .

seen now alots problems facing her .
what can i do?
i really hao disspointed .

TO: my most loved person .
i didn't expect you do anything or say anything.
maybe i just wan you to say out your true feeling to me.
i didn't treat you as a toy .
i didn't push you to him .
i just no choice.can i say no? have i still have the right ?
seen like he getting closer to you ? you been touched by him?
you said until like that ... den what have you treat me as?
wan break wan push me in the sudden since we together til now?
you know how i feel?
how much i put into this relatioship ?

now de ni.
-just will say its pointless.
-say already end le.
what can i do ? in your true heart you really that like that?

i admit that i did give you attitude .
but did you ask youself what you give me the attitude when i holding you back?
what did you have said to me?

i just know . since you have said that & choose that .
i just have to respect you .

althought in my heart you still ....

of coz i still bother you ,cause i still care .