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 我不知道我需要多长的时间才可以真正的把你忘记，我不知道我还是否有想你的勇气。但是，我知道我的这份爱，这份心痛，将会陪伴我一段很长很长的日子。 Easy&Simple. With♥, SERINE. NGMINFEI 谢谢你给我的一切 . Always had a place in my heart♥ |
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to: yiyang.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008 i've seen what you written.. i'm abit touched by what you wrote. but it seems that you still don't understand what i want.. u ask meimei why i've change my attitude towards you. now i shall tell you the answer. when i need you the most, you're not there. even does your there. you won't care & concern like the past. it's goes the same to you too. as u've said: when you need me the most, i'm not there with you. if my attitude shows you that you don't stand much in my heart. why shall i bother telling you so much? u tell me larhs? from the start, have you ever tried telling me how you feel? why you always want wait till i'm starting to give up then u hold back? have u ever think of my feeling? yes, i'm the one who always been pushing you away. & saying the break first. but have you think properly what causes it? it's not that i said it for fun or anger lehs. starting, i've choose to break is because of my ex-boyf. behind, i've tried to change. but your attitudes have change towards me. what u expect me to do in such a sudden? u should know from the start u know me, u never treat me like that before lehs? & because of your that damn reason, u expect me to accept everything from the start again. by facing your coldness, your attitudes, your words. i'm a girl afterall lehs! i'm nt a cold-blooded person lehs! i've feeling de leh! i know you're in a situation of dilema. because u don't want this to happen too.. but i just want tell you, it's tiring to face all that. i also need the love & concern from a boyfriend. the happiness that we've in the past. but all for me, it's seems getting far as times goes by. i've cried aimlessly for you at that moment.. have you ever cared? have u ever shown it out? i've tried my very best to pei you. but end up. the feeling aren't there anymore. because i'm used to it without you by my side luhs. all your words. are just piercing through my heart.. u should know that i'm afraid of getting hurt once agn.. if we'll get back, won't it happen again? i'm afraid of all that luhs. the feeling really sucks. if u bother to say all this words at the starting. i don't think it will end up like this. maybe you've lost me, then you learn to cherish me bahs. you don't give me the feeling of being loved anymore.. you said you've always stand in my shoe to think.. but when really things happen; & we quarrelled. we'll blame on each other. aren't you find it stupid?! if you always stand in my shoe to think. would you always say those words. & you already know that i've so much problems. have you ever stand by me to pei me? ya, i've told you that i want to cool down. because i won't know what will happen on my court hearing. i don't want anybody to wait. or what. you know what, i'm disappointed because that day when you want to meet me. you like don't bother to come down at all. even if i'm sick. at last; you also didnt come down. but instead we have a small tiff. hais. suan luhs. say so much also useless. i've learn to let go you luhs. it's take time for us to recover bahs. the happy moments just remember in heart is sufficient luhs(: & i didnt push you or break with you in a sudden alrights. u should know what's the reason behind it. & your actions didnt show me that u've put alot in this r/s after that day. it's just tell me you don't give a damn towards it anymore. at least towards this r/s. i've tried to hold back. salvage it. told you what i want. msg you that i miss you. msg you that i bother. i won't regret it luhs. i've did my best & put my best luhs. just let time heal everything bahs. & let it prove everything bahs. 我真的好累好累。 我不想再浪费时间想着感情的事。 就如此的脆弱；勉强也没幸福的。 一切于零开始，不管在难也得走下去。 我只想开开心心度过这一切。 you takecare of yourself bahs. if you still bother or care, just let be friends for the moments bahs. 3days luhs; we never contact each other at all(: maybe both of us really used to it le bahs. jiayous&recover soon. |
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